2021

Family of God…

I am not the one to ask about healthy family dynamics or what a family unity should look like. None of my family experiences have been anything other than dysfunctional at best. So last week when my pastor discussed how as Christians we are all siblings in Christ, I internally winced. My initial thought was… Continue reading Family of God…

2021

Trauma Reactions and Jesus

Photo by RODNAE Productions on Pexels.com I love Jesus. I am fully devoted to Him, and yet I still struggle with the blame game. As people in my life hurt us, or we struggle with trauma reactions, we find ourselves questioning everything we believed to be fact, including Jesus' love. Is this fair? Probably not,… Continue reading Trauma Reactions and Jesus

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2018, DID, dissociative identity disorder, Rachel

Feeling Feelings: Allowing the Emotions

Feeling feelings is not always fun or easy. Trust me, this much I know well. It's so much easier in the short run to stuff them, ignore them, dissociate away from them. It's easier to deny the feelings and pretend we've processed them. It's something we do very well. And something that Mama never fails… Continue reading Feeling Feelings: Allowing the Emotions

2016, Annie, DID, dissociative identity disorder

Made to be Used

***This post was originally posted on our first blog, and then 7 months ago transferred over here. It's raw, intense, and mentions some sexual abuse. I no longer feel the relationship with these words that I felt when I first wrote them. I know now that I don't ever have to do anything sexual that… Continue reading Made to be Used

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Maddie

Writing as a Method of Avoidance

Guys, I have a problem. A problem that many of us in this system share. A problem that we were slapped in the face with on Tuesday night at our CR step study. It turns out that we can write about our feelings, our traumas, our insecurities all day long. It is MUCH harder to… Continue reading Writing as a Method of Avoidance

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Erica, Rachel

Forgive Us Our Trespasses

(Content Summary for our readers who have trouble with religion as a topic. This post is mainly about religion and how it teaches us forgiveness. This is a big deal for us and while we'd like to share it with everyone, we acknowledge potential triggers.)   Lately, there's been a lot going on in our… Continue reading Forgive Us Our Trespasses

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociative identity disorder, fear, Rachel

Where is Fear Taking Us?

  The sermon at church last night came with several application questions. Personally, I like those because they give me something to really think on, and where we have such memory issues, I can use those to grip onto the important parts of the message... or at least what I take from it. We all… Continue reading Where is Fear Taking Us?

2016, DID, dissociative identity disorder, family, Uncategorized

The Shrine Circus is in town! #jordanworldcircus

It's the Circus! Friday night Mama and Daddy took us and the rest of the kids to the circus at the fairgrounds. Everyone was so excited because it was the first time any of us can remember going to anything like it and definitely the first time for the other kids. It was windy out… Continue reading The Shrine Circus is in town! #jordanworldcircus

2016, Kaysie

The Role Family Acceptance Plays in Healing

Family Acceptance We have absolutely no biological family support when it comes to our mental health diagnoses. Not one member of our biological family, except maybe a cousin we lost contact with, accepts us as we are in our entirety. That lack of acceptance led us into a marriage where we thought we had found it,… Continue reading The Role Family Acceptance Plays in Healing

2016, DID, Layna, Medical, sexual abuse

Medical Issues and Trauma

Seriously, is there anything more scary and frustrating? Honestly, I used to be responsible for that part of our life. And I used to handle that responsibility by skipping it. Endocrinologist for our diabetes? Sorry, busy. That shit is crazy complicated. Gynocologist?  Yeah, NO. Just not happening. Not even sorry. Pediatrist?  Nope. Not going to… Continue reading Medical Issues and Trauma