2021

Sunset

My heartbeat picks up as the sun goes to bed. I can faintly hear the darkness calling for us. If I sit still enough I can feel it's cool comforting touch. My heartbeat picks up because I know the battle begins again. The battle we promised to fight. The battle that can't be lost without… Continue reading Sunset

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Community: Reasons we need each other

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Humans are not designed to be solitary creatures. We were created to be in community with others, not just our families. We do better together. Why is this so? I know from personal experience we do better around others. We feel safer, more supported, and less alone. Our friends are… Continue reading Community: Reasons we need each other

2021

Be Still

This morning as I was reading my daily Bible devotions on YouVersion I came across a thought. Maybe even a cluster of thoughts. In one of the devotionals they cited Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." For as long as I can remember I always thought that… Continue reading Be Still

2021, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Processing

Wandering in Darkness

Tonight at our Celebrate Recovery meeting the speaker read a devotional in which the author was discussing being stuck in the dark void. The dark void, a place we've been wandering in for months now. In the piece the author mentioned people coming into the void to be with him/her. In that moment I thought… Continue reading Wandering in Darkness

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Anxiety: The Energy That Destroys

Yesterday we had a psych eval with a new doctor. The outcome was predictable (C-PTSD, DID, GAD, and major depression), and yet surprising. Anxiety is destroying our ability to use our coping skills and is harming our physical health. The doctor said until our anxiety comes down significantly and until things are resolved at home… Continue reading Anxiety: The Energy That Destroys

2021

For I know the plans I have for you

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) Sunday morning I was still reeling from a very bad day on Thursday. I logged into our church service and tried my best… Continue reading For I know the plans I have for you

2021

When Prayer Doesn’t Feel Like Enough

"Experience teaches us that we do not always receive the blessings we ask for in prayer." Mary Baker Eddy We are struggling. Struggling in a way we haven't in many years. There's feelings of shame, guilt, regret, betrayal, hurt, and just overall massive amounts of pain and darkness. There are only 4 reasons to keep… Continue reading When Prayer Doesn’t Feel Like Enough

2020, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, reflection, Sabrina, Uncategorized

Dissociative Identity Disorder and the Church

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Today I decided to google "multiple personalities and the church" as well as "dissociative identity disorder and the church". What I read there, while mostly articles 10+ years old, was truly disturbing. Most of the articles, spanning many different denominations, were of the opinion that D.I.D is actually demon possession… Continue reading Dissociative Identity Disorder and the Church

2019, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder

Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder

The journey begins. We have met someone. Someone who accepts us and is working on understanding dissociative identity disorder. Let's be real. It is a lot to ask of anyone.  Charming* is no stranger to mental health challenges. He is not scared away by a trauma background. He has his own challenges in that area,… Continue reading Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder