2019, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Kaysie

5 Things We’ve Learned in the last 4 months: Jumping back in

So the last 4 months have been complete radio silence. We go through those cycles, unfortunately. Somewhere along the line one of us decides that we're wasting everyone's time by writing things they read when they have much better things to do. Isn't that nice of us, to decide that for people we mostly don't… Continue reading 5 Things We’ve Learned in the last 4 months: Jumping back in

2016, Kaysie

Inside Where We Live (Kassandra)

  I'm Kaysie. If you ask any of my sisters inside, though, they will tell you I am Kassandra. Really, Kaysie works just fine. I'm about 16 years old and I am the Lead Protector for this system. Yep, me. I am solely responsible for their safety and security. I handle most of the doctor… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Kassandra)

2016, Kaysie

Migraines… the Root of All Evil

Migraines in Systems? I'm not even sure where to start. When a migraine takes hold, it is sort of like hell is descending down upon us. The aura starts, which is surprisingly similar to what the picture is trying to show. We get the silver, blue, and purple sparkles flickering around and the colors swerving… Continue reading Migraines… the Root of All Evil

2016, Kaysie

The Role Family Acceptance Plays in Healing

Family Acceptance We have absolutely no biological family support when it comes to our mental health diagnoses. Not one member of our biological family, except maybe a cousin we lost contact with, accepts us as we are in our entirety. That lack of acceptance led us into a marriage where we thought we had found it,… Continue reading The Role Family Acceptance Plays in Healing

2016, Blogger, emotion, fear, fire, firepit, Kaysie, Mama, scars, social interaction, trauma, trust

Around the Fire Pit

I took this picture last night while being social! I was in the living room with Mama yesterday afternoon. Mama says "My friend is having a fire tonight and I really want to go." I looked up from my phone long enough to mumble "Go for it. I'll watch the other kids." Don't judge. I was… Continue reading Around the Fire Pit

2016, Blogger, changes, children, csa, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, Kaysie, Mama, memories, monsters, shadows, transition, trauma

Shadow People in the Closet

Image Credit:  http://thehorrormoviesblog.com/2015/06/16/shadow-people/I'm physically in the livingroom. My mom is with me. She's knitting and watching TV and I am working on DID awareness stuff and keeping up with the support group we run on Facebook for DID. I'm coughing, clearing my throat, and gasping for breath, Mama mumbles under her breath."I wish I could… Continue reading Shadow People in the Closet

csa, Kaysie, Processing, reflection, sexual abuse, trauma

Reflection

So I just read an article. An article that caused some heavy thoughts and some goosebumps. I'll link the article to the bottom of my rambling because I want to process this out. In short summary, the article was about the author's opinion of comments made about a 14 year old girl who completed suicide… Continue reading Reflection