2018, Alayna, DID, dissociative identity disorder, fear, Rachel

Where is Fear Taking Us?

  The sermon at church last night came with several application questions. Personally, I like those because they give me something to really think on, and where we have such memory issues, I can use those to grip onto the important parts of the message... or at least what I take from it. We all… Continue reading Where is Fear Taking Us?

2016, anxiety, Blogger, children, DID, dissociative identity disorder, family, fear, husband, introduction, josslyn, marriage, messy, monsters, trauma

Inside Where We Live (Josslyn)

image from googlehi im josslyn an im like, i dunno, 13 i guess. i usedta be littler but i was scared of everything and spent a lot of time under my bed or in the closet cuz i was always scared. but then i took a really loong nap, like from november to march and… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Josslyn)

2016, Blogger, emotion, fear, fire, firepit, Kaysie, Mama, scars, social interaction, trauma, trust

Around the Fire Pit

I took this picture last night while being social! I was in the living room with Mama yesterday afternoon. Mama says "My friend is having a fire tonight and I really want to go." I looked up from my phone long enough to mumble "Go for it. I'll watch the other kids." Don't judge. I was… Continue reading Around the Fire Pit

2016, Blogger, changes, children, csa, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, Kaysie, Mama, memories, monsters, shadows, transition, trauma

Shadow People in the Closet

Image Credit:  http://thehorrormoviesblog.com/2015/06/16/shadow-people/I'm physically in the livingroom. My mom is with me. She's knitting and watching TV and I am working on DID awareness stuff and keeping up with the support group we run on Facebook for DID. I'm coughing, clearing my throat, and gasping for breath, Mama mumbles under her breath."I wish I could… Continue reading Shadow People in the Closet

anxiety, Blogger, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, headache, Jessa, Mama, Mia, raw, scars, social interaction, transition, vulnerability

Heroes

That's the truth. We are just kids. The body may be 34 years old, and our littles may be more advanced in some areas than chronological children, but we are just kids. We range in age from 4-17 years old and we have some stunning lacking skills in the area of social skills and emotional… Continue reading Heroes

anxiety, Blogger, cadie, DID, emotion, fear, headache, Layna, messy, vulnerability

Understanding Ourselves….

Henry David Thoreau said "Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves."We have spent the better part of our lives lost. We didn't really gain much for understanding ourselves.I'm not really sure where I'm going with that. I just know that today has been rough, almost from the beginning. Jessa was out… Continue reading Understanding Ourselves….

Alexandria, Blogger, changes, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, Jessa, Layna, Mackenzie, messy, Processing, transition

Office Hours, Processing, and Jessa

We, or maybe just I, seriously need "office hours". We need to dedicate a time where we can just write, research, learn, grow, think... and to process things. I process things through reading and writing, and using our cell phone to research and write is a lesson in futility... or maybe a lesson in patience...… Continue reading Office Hours, Processing, and Jessa

changes, emotion, family, fear, love, messy, raw, social interaction, transition

Except when we don't. Because we are a family and we are real. And lately, we do "leave people out, hurt feelings, yelling, door slamming, frustration, and unrealistic demands of each other". Awesome, huh?We're a new family. We are still transitioning and learning how to be a family. Every single person in this family... from… Continue reading

changes, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, fear, Layna

The Worst is Over Now…..

.... so what the fuck is wrong with us?Cadie touched on it some yesterday. Not gonna rehash that, its boring crap anyways.I woke up in a fairly decent mood... and then I had to get out of bed. Instantly everything was stupidly overwhelming. I couldn't remember who was supposed to do what (thank God for… Continue reading The Worst is Over Now…..