2016, Blogger, emotion, fear, fire, firepit, Kaysie, Mama, scars, social interaction, trauma, trust

Around the Fire Pit

I took this picture last night while being social! I was in the living room with Mama yesterday afternoon. Mama says "My friend is having a fire tonight and I really want to go." I looked up from my phone long enough to mumble "Go for it. I'll watch the other kids." Don't judge. I was… Continue reading Around the Fire Pit

2016, Blogger, blood sugar, DID, dissociative identity disorder, eating disorder, emotion, family, headache, health, inside world, Jenna, Mia, Sabrina, transition, weight

Hold Up….. Weight a Minute….

This entire system is plagued by absolutely horrific relationships with food. The vast majority of us can be divided between two categories. Binge eating, or bulimia. Body hatred is big in this system for a variety of reasons, most coming down to size. For years now my sweet sisters have toyed with trying to "fix"… Continue reading Hold Up….. Weight a Minute….

2016, Bella, emotion, inside world, introduction, Mama, protector, white tiger, writing

Inside Where We Live (Arabella)

I really have nothing pressing to talk about. It's my turn to write... well, I haven't written in a long time but we don't really have turns. Mostly We write when we feel like it. I could spend some time introducing myself though.I'm going to be honest though, introducing myself seems risky. I'm one of… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Arabella)

2016, Blogger, changes, DID, dissociative identity disorder, dragon, emotion, family, inside world, introduction, Layna, Mama, messy, protection, raw, reflection, safe, shiloh, trauma, vulnerability

Inside… Where We Live (Alayna)

Image credit: Values.comLast night Mama was talking to Cadie and she said that we have suddenly all stopped communicating about our inside struggles. We haven't been using our secret group to communicate with each other and the blog has been all but ignored. We rarely post in our own group about our struggles but we… Continue reading Inside… Where We Live (Alayna)

2016, Blogger, changes, children, csa, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, Kaysie, Mama, memories, monsters, shadows, transition, trauma

Shadow People in the Closet

Image Credit:  http://thehorrormoviesblog.com/2015/06/16/shadow-people/I'm physically in the livingroom. My mom is with me. She's knitting and watching TV and I am working on DID awareness stuff and keeping up with the support group we run on Facebook for DID. I'm coughing, clearing my throat, and gasping for breath, Mama mumbles under her breath."I wish I could… Continue reading Shadow People in the Closet

children, DID, emotion, family, Layna, memories, Processing, sexual abuse, writing

Childhood Sexual Abuse

Image credit: http://www.colorlines.com/content/what-you-need-know-about-childhood-sexual-abuseThe statistics in the image are heartbreaking and shock a lot of people. Childhood sexual abuse doesn't shock me. It doesn't stun me, and it doesn't surprise me. I never wonder how it could possibly happen. I never have wondered. I never will wonder.As early as any of us can remember, this body was… Continue reading Childhood Sexual Abuse

DID, emotion, headache, Jessa, memories, mother, reflection, sexual abuse, timeline, trauma

Memories of Mothers

Alayna woke up this morning. She was awake for about an hour when she realized that Sunday is Mother's Day. Our adopted mom is cool and we adore her and this will be our first Mother's Day with her.... but our bio mom doesn't inspire great thoughts or warm fuzzies. It was only a few… Continue reading Memories of Mothers

anxiety, Blogger, blood sugar, changes, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, Jenna, Layna, Mama, safe, safety, transition, weight

Our Aching Feet…..

Most weekday mornings we head out for a walk. We aim for anywhere between 3 and 5 miles, although sometimes we're lucky to hit two miles.... haha.  The walks weren't something we could really do in our old life. We didn't feel safe enough or comfortable enough and it always seemed like our time was… Continue reading Our Aching Feet…..

anxiety, Blogger, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, headache, Jessa, Mama, Mia, raw, scars, social interaction, transition, vulnerability

Heroes

That's the truth. We are just kids. The body may be 34 years old, and our littles may be more advanced in some areas than chronological children, but we are just kids. We range in age from 4-17 years old and we have some stunning lacking skills in the area of social skills and emotional… Continue reading Heroes