2021, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Processing

Wandering in Darkness

Tonight at our Celebrate Recovery meeting the speaker read a devotional in which the author was discussing being stuck in the dark void. The dark void, a place we've been wandering in for months now. In the piece the author mentioned people coming into the void to be with him/her. In that moment I thought… Continue reading Wandering in Darkness

2019, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder

Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder

The journey begins. We have met someone. Someone who accepts us and is working on understanding dissociative identity disorder. Let's be real. It is a lot to ask of anyone.  Charming* is no stranger to mental health challenges. He is not scared away by a trauma background. He has his own challenges in that area,… Continue reading Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder

2019, DID, dissociative identity disorder, faith

Following our Path #followingourpath

It's been over a year now since we crash landed into Celebrate Recovery and our path in the Lord. Being entirely real here, some of us figured it was yet another phase we were going through and would eventually get bored with it. That has turned out not to be the case. This is a… Continue reading Following our Path #followingourpath

bananas
2018, Annie, DID, dissociative identity disorder

Tackling Learned Helplessness – With Bananas

Yes, you read that right. With bananas. Bananas are okay. I wouldn't call them my favorite fruit or anything, but I like them alright. I will eat them if they are available without a problem. We usually have bananas in the house. For some reason, we didn't get them all eaten this week and several… Continue reading Tackling Learned Helplessness – With Bananas

Learned
2018, DID, dissociative identity disorder, Rachel

10 Things We Learned This Week

1.) Red Robin will soon be going strawless, as was proclaimed by a large button pin on our server's chest yesterday. We will have to bring our own straws if we intend to use a straw at Red Robin. Our server said he has friends who carry around metal straws when they go out to… Continue reading 10 Things We Learned This Week

emotions
2018, DID, dissociative identity disorder, Rachel

Feeling Feelings: Allowing the Emotions

Feeling feelings is not always fun or easy. Trust me, this much I know well. It's so much easier in the short run to stuff them, ignore them, dissociate away from them. It's easier to deny the feelings and pretend we've processed them. It's something we do very well. And something that Mama never fails… Continue reading Feeling Feelings: Allowing the Emotions

Self-care
2018, DID, dissociative identity disorder, Parker

5 Ideas for Good Self-Care

When thinking about self-care it seems like the options are endless. There are so many sites talking about self-care and listing things in a very rushed way. I think we've all seen lists of 50+ things you can do for self-care. That's not entirely what I want to discuss here. We, all of Brilliant Chaos,… Continue reading 5 Ideas for Good Self-Care

proud
2018, DID, dissociative identity disorder, Maddie

Proud, Finally.

It's been a long time since we, any of us, could say that there was any reason to keep going in life. Just as short as three years ago we knew we were only alive to keep the kids safe. We had no purpose at all, and no reason to exist beyond the kids. While… Continue reading Proud, Finally.

2016, Annie, DID, dissociative identity disorder

Made to be Used

***This post was originally posted on our first blog, and then 7 months ago transferred over here. It's raw, intense, and mentions some sexual abuse. I no longer feel the relationship with these words that I felt when I first wrote them. I know now that I don't ever have to do anything sexual that… Continue reading Made to be Used