2016, Alexandria, betsy, Blogger, cadie, Daddy, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, family, husband, inside world, introduction, island, keeper, lexi, Mama, marriage, zoey

Inside Where We Live (Alexandria)

hi im lexi and im 10. i wasn't always 10. for awhile i was grown up but that didn't work so good. i didn't get married but i was there like rite after we moved back after we got married and we had two baby girls and it was stupid and i couldn't figure out… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Alexandria)

2016, Blogger, cadie, DID, dissociative identity disorder, dogs, health, howard, Mama, safe, safety, sensory overload, service dog, social interaction, walking, zoning out

and we all fall down….

howard's nose, because its cute. he's a 1 year old black lab.sometimes we fall down. a lot of times we fall down. maybe not so much literally fall down, more figuratively. but still, falling is falling, right?it was walk time this morning. bella was out and mama suggested that bella take howard with her. howard… Continue reading and we all fall down….

2016, Blogger, Daddy, DID, dissociative identity disorder, inside world, introduction, lion, Mama, Processing, protection, reflection, safe, safety, trauma

Inside Where We Live (Parker Quinn)

image frrom googlehi, i'm Parker and i'm 13 like Jossy. we're twins. i only started coming out like this month before that i didn't come out much. i had one job and that job was to watch what was going on inside the inside world and to report it to people outside who needed that… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Parker Quinn)

2016, anxiety, Blogger, children, DID, dissociative identity disorder, family, fear, husband, introduction, josslyn, marriage, messy, monsters, trauma

Inside Where We Live (Josslyn)

image from googlehi im josslyn an im like, i dunno, 13 i guess. i usedta be littler but i was scared of everything and spent a lot of time under my bed or in the closet cuz i was always scared. but then i took a really loong nap, like from november to march and… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Josslyn)

2016, Blogger, emotion, fear, fire, firepit, Kaysie, Mama, scars, social interaction, trauma, trust

Around the Fire Pit

I took this picture last night while being social! I was in the living room with Mama yesterday afternoon. Mama says "My friend is having a fire tonight and I really want to go." I looked up from my phone long enough to mumble "Go for it. I'll watch the other kids." Don't judge. I was… Continue reading Around the Fire Pit

2016, Blogger, blood sugar, DID, dissociative identity disorder, eating disorder, emotion, family, headache, health, inside world, Jenna, Mia, Sabrina, transition, weight

Hold Up….. Weight a Minute….

This entire system is plagued by absolutely horrific relationships with food. The vast majority of us can be divided between two categories. Binge eating, or bulimia. Body hatred is big in this system for a variety of reasons, most coming down to size. For years now my sweet sisters have toyed with trying to "fix"… Continue reading Hold Up….. Weight a Minute….

2016, Blogger, DID, dissociative identity disorder, family, inside world, introduction, Olly, white tiger

Inside Where We Live (Olivia)

Credit: Googleme is olly. i is 3 yer old. i is a baby tiger lik bella insid. outsid olly is litle gurl. olly lernin to spell an lernin to be in a famely. insid olly plays wit zoey andee finley an shy mostlee.daddy call me his litle gurl. that maks olly happy. daddy is nise… Continue reading Inside Where We Live (Olivia)

2016, Blogger, inside world, Jessa, shadows, social interaction

Balance Between Inside and Outside

Inside world is in chaos. We have shadows causing all kinds of frustration and discomfort. We have been battling this, or at least trying to manage all of this since Friday and its been intense and depressing.Long story short, we have a baby in our forest inside. The baby is sheltered and safe but sleeping… Continue reading Balance Between Inside and Outside

2016, Blogger, changes, DID, dissociative identity disorder, dragon, emotion, family, inside world, introduction, Layna, Mama, messy, protection, raw, reflection, safe, shiloh, trauma, vulnerability

Inside… Where We Live (Alayna)

Image credit: Values.comLast night Mama was talking to Cadie and she said that we have suddenly all stopped communicating about our inside struggles. We haven't been using our secret group to communicate with each other and the blog has been all but ignored. We rarely post in our own group about our struggles but we… Continue reading Inside… Where We Live (Alayna)

2016, Blogger, changes, children, csa, DID, dissociative identity disorder, emotion, family, fear, Kaysie, Mama, memories, monsters, shadows, transition, trauma

Shadow People in the Closet

Image Credit:  http://thehorrormoviesblog.com/2015/06/16/shadow-people/I'm physically in the livingroom. My mom is with me. She's knitting and watching TV and I am working on DID awareness stuff and keeping up with the support group we run on Facebook for DID. I'm coughing, clearing my throat, and gasping for breath, Mama mumbles under her breath."I wish I could… Continue reading Shadow People in the Closet