2019, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder

Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder

The journey begins. We have met someone. Someone who accepts us and is working on understanding dissociative identity disorder. Let's be real. It is a lot to ask of anyone.  Charming* is no stranger to mental health challenges. He is not scared away by a trauma background. He has his own challenges in that area,… Continue reading Dating with Dissociative Identity Disorder

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociative identity disorder

Crawling to the Ceasefire

  Crawling Linkin Park Crawling in my skin These wounds, they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface Consuming, confusing This lack of self control I fear is never ending Controlling I can't seem To find myself again My walls are… Continue reading Crawling to the Ceasefire

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Maddie

Writing as a Method of Avoidance

Guys, I have a problem. A problem that many of us in this system share. A problem that we were slapped in the face with on Tuesday night at our CR step study. It turns out that we can write about our feelings, our traumas, our insecurities all day long. It is MUCH harder to… Continue reading Writing as a Method of Avoidance

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder

Once Upon a Time…

We clearly haven't been keeping up with our writing. It's not that we don't like it, truthfully we love to write. To come up with an idea and follow it through into text. Some of us sometimes go back and re-read what we've written years ago. We see how much we've grown and changed since… Continue reading Once Upon a Time…

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Erica, Rachel

Forgive Us Our Trespasses

(Content Summary for our readers who have trouble with religion as a topic. This post is mainly about religion and how it teaches us forgiveness. This is a big deal for us and while we'd like to share it with everyone, we acknowledge potential triggers.)   Lately, there's been a lot going on in our… Continue reading Forgive Us Our Trespasses

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder


I long for the day that mental health and people who are less than perfect, people who struggle, people who are less than politically correct or don't exactly fit into polite society will finally be welcome in the church with kindness and understanding. Jesus never intended for churches to be just the polite society people. I know, we've been reading the bible. Jesus loved and reached out to those of us who will never be polite society material.

2018, Alayna, Annie, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder

We Changed Our Minds…

There's always so much to write about. Some of it we are nervous about sharing, but sharing happens so healing can happen. This post may cause some issues for some people so please keep that in mind when reading. We changed our minds. We decided to change how we view our past. Our life. The… Continue reading We Changed Our Minds…

2018, Alayna, cadie, DID, dissociative identity disorder

If You Can’t Beat Them….

  The shadows have been a consistent problem for the last couple of years. They cause chaos, they get quiet. The reject members of their colony and then get mad at us for taking them in. They cause choking while trying to swallow things. They feed negative and painful thoughts to the majority of us.… Continue reading If You Can’t Beat Them….

2018, Alayna, DID, dissociative identity disorder, fear, Rachel

Where is Fear Taking Us?

  The sermon at church last night came with several application questions. Personally, I like those because they give me something to really think on, and where we have such memory issues, I can use those to grip onto the important parts of the message... or at least what I take from it. We all… Continue reading Where is Fear Taking Us?

2018, Alayna, Rachel

An Attitude of Gratitude

Last night at Celebrate Recovery the lesson was about gratitude. We have a list of things from that lesson we are grateful for. And we have a list of things from this morning that we are grateful for. The "Attitude of Gratitude" isn't new for us. It shows up in recovery a lot. So many… Continue reading An Attitude of Gratitude