1.) Red Robin will soon be going strawless, as was proclaimed by a large button pin on our server's chest yesterday. We will have to bring our own straws if we intend to use a straw at Red Robin. Our server said he has friends who carry around metal straws when they go out to… Continue reading 10 Things We Learned This Week
Feeling feelings is not always fun or easy. Trust me, this much I know well. It's so much easier in the short run to stuff them, ignore them, dissociate away from them. It's easier to deny the feelings and pretend we've processed them. It's something we do very well. And something that Mama never fails… Continue reading Feeling Feelings: Allowing the Emotions
When thinking about self-care it seems like the options are endless. There are so many sites talking about self-care and listing things in a very rushed way. I think we've all seen lists of 50+ things you can do for self-care. That's not entirely what I want to discuss here. We, all of Brilliant Chaos,… Continue reading 5 Ideas for Good Self-Care
It's been a long time since we, any of us, could say that there was any reason to keep going in life. Just as short as three years ago we knew we were only alive to keep the kids safe. We had no purpose at all, and no reason to exist beyond the kids. While… Continue reading Proud, Finally.
***This post was originally posted on our first blog, and then 7 months ago transferred over here. It's raw, intense, and mentions some sexual abuse. I no longer feel the relationship with these words that I felt when I first wrote them. I know now that I don't ever have to do anything sexual that… Continue reading Made to be Used
Crawling Linkin Park Crawling in my skin These wounds, they will not heal Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface Consuming, confusing This lack of self control I fear is never ending Controlling I can't seem To find myself again My walls are… Continue reading Crawling to the Ceasefire
Guys, I have a problem. A problem that many of us in this system share. A problem that we were slapped in the face with on Tuesday night at our CR step study. It turns out that we can write about our feelings, our traumas, our insecurities all day long. It is MUCH harder to… Continue reading Writing as a Method of Avoidance
A better question might be, does it help at all? Honestly, probably not, and yet we do it anyways. Feeling sad? Shut down. Feeling hurt? Keep quiet. Feeling overwhelmed by chaotic happenings inside? Don't share THAT. Anything but that. It used to be that many of us considered it a sign of strength if we… Continue reading How Does Isolation Help?
This is a hard post to write, yet it's probably our most important post to date. In many ways, it's the new beginning. Again. I know, you've all heard this new beginning thing before. None of that was lies. In their own way every time we've claimed a new beginning, it's been a new beginning.… Continue reading Becoming Emma